bakagamer's little notes

It’s been confirmed that I will be doing guard duty during CNY. Sucks to be true.

anyway.

Happy early Chinese New Year!

went shopping around with my friends today. happened to chance upon an very old (70s to 80s) couple who are tailors that custom make clothes. well. looking at them just makes me feel interested.

i feel that i have a great affinity with very old people. they give me a feeling of bliss, tranquility and contentment. they will never complain about their loves, complain about the lack of chanel bags, complain about the lack of iphone, complain about the skies and stars etc.

well. this couple was tailor making some professional uniforms together. yes they are kinda old, the guy’s hands were trembling while holding the tailor scissors and his wife’s petite frame looked like she will be blown away by the wind anytime lol. i aint too sure how to describe but they complemented each other very well. the husband was like the pencil and the spouse was the paper, only together they can create an artwork. and yeah, i took a look at their stuffs, the worksmanship was really good.

i wonder how many of us can find the significant other, how many of us can live happily with ya spouses till the head turns white and more so how many can find the one who will support and stand by you all these years.

my answer is no.

never.

i never did believe in love and never will i give faith to fairy tales.

okay. enough with the love crap.

part 2.

looking at the already old couple, i kinda feel for them. i wondered why they would still continue working till so old. i mean, like, perhaps they can slack off watching tv at home or talking cock like those ah peks in coffeeshops. surely, they can just survive off their kids. (haha.) however, witnessing how they do work, i can really see they take pride in their work. their dedication to their profession is a sight to behold. Kinda cool really.

i wonder if i would have that kind of heartfelt passion to last me a lifetime. sure, everyone has got their ambitions, but i ‘d wonder who will have the conviction and determination to walk down their dream path.

this 2 years will be probably be my most scariest part of my life. never in life have i felt such fear. not even the girl in red can scare me as much as this. not even a blade against my throat can i feel such anguish.

serious.

i really dread to imagine what ‘d fed into the brains of the trained officers and ranked above. their manipulation of facts, figures and eloquence are truly amazing. i would imagine the psychology and human psyche training they received from the higher-ups. truly terrifying. they are geared to make people mince their own words and kneel before them. perhaps this is what the country call as leadership..

case in point 1; conflict

• punishment give to run up the stairs with full vest and backpack for 1 hr.
• oh you are excused ar? nevermind you sit there and watch them run for 1 hr.

you can’t possibly watch hundreds of people suffer for hours while you are sitting there in comfort right? thereby. forcing you to join in the pain and perhaps more pain due to your already injured body. another thing. sitting there will probably instantly label you a public enemy. envy is a best way to gain infamy. niceee.

case in point 2; playing with specifics

• excused heavy load
• eh excused how much heavy load? 5kg, 10kg, 15kg, 20kg? dont be a weak **** leh. ok you can carry 15 kg la.

details are fun, aren’t they? playing around with the details around the inevitable grey areas are nice too. inevitables exist in this case as sicknesses, injuries and welfare of a human being are not quantifiable; how would you judge yourself as happy on an absolute scale? i am level 100 happy/ level 99 comfortable. lol? joke.

case in point 3; cornering the prey

• excused prolonged standing beyond 15 mins
• wahhh i see you have got official certification! ok! if i see you stand more than 15 mins at any point in time, i will charge you **** for malingering.

nice isn’t it? the best strategy to destroy people is to let them destroy themselves which is obvious this case.

oh well there’s a ton more of such stuffs. i seriously wonder what will happen if all the people were like that in the country. sure. nice job training leaders.

tell me, is there worth in this country? PRAY TELL ME.

avatar movie. probably one of the best fantasy movie. ever.

havent been watching movies for a few months.. this is the sequel of wind and cloud, filled with CGI effects.