reflections part 2
Ok part 2. Thanks josh for the reminder that being 21 gives all the legit rights of an adult! I can now legally do things lol. Okay, I have signed up for the HOTA contract to donate all my organs and whatever parts of my body should i die. And yeah, I am considering all the different types of insurance policies, savings plans, medishields etc.
Is it just me or I feel so darn tired living till 21. I cant imagine this is only about 1/4 of my life yet.. And people say the first 20 years are probably the easiest years to live by. To me, life’s a constant struggle. The struggle against fate, struggle against destiny. Struggle against everything. Life’s certainly not a bed of roses. 60 more years. 60. more. years. of. struggle. and. suffering. and i can push the red button and kiss planet earth good bye. I hope i can hang on that long enough. (ignoring the struggle of afterlife) Of course, when i am alive, i will definitely get the best out of it. Haha.
And yeah, on my birthday, I threw away a good load of stuffs. More importantly, I ditched most of my childhood items that are with enormous sentimental values. I felt that I shouldnt be clinging to items of security.. or else I will never truly grow up. Yeah, I am not like those retards who reminisce endlessly about the totems of past and comfort.
I know myself very well. In order to stand on my own feet, I need to remind myself that I have nothing. Having those little items and pictures of happy moments will only let me leech onto the past.. (This is also why I dislike taking pictures. lol) Complaceny of such will never make me go far. I must live for the future, not for the past. And yeah I need to stay on the constant edge of peril to maintain my motivation and keep the mindset of striving hard.
I am really thankful and grateful to all the lecturers, tutors and mentors from Pri sch, sec sch, JC and poly for all their time and dedication. I wont list all your names here but i have specifically remembered and honoured all and each of you for imparting your knowledge to me that made me who am I today.
I am also particularly thankful for all the experiences I have in Ngee Ann Poly. Hmm.. I regard 2006 as my second life. Everything that had happened before 2006.. I have all chosen to forgot all about it, more specifically the unhappy ones. So yeah, I really love my time in poly. I really thank all the friends I have made after 2006! (Those who I still keep in contact before 2006.. you guys are cherished as well.) You guys really made a difference in my life! The poly life was very good. This is the period where change was pervalent, impactful and always happening. This is also the period with the most intense thoughts and reflections. This is when I finally crystallised all my dreams and ambitions. I am really very happy! :D
I will continue to take charge, and change for the better. All for the betterment of humanity.
